The worst feeling

So today was a bit of a challenge. Okay, so was last night. Jonah was up 5 times. I don't know why, so please don't ask. Once he was up for the day he was up. And I mean up. He slept for a total of 10 minutes. Let me add that it was very cold and extremely windy today, so I couldn't take him outside for a walk. David didn't get home until 7 PM. I was dog sitting for my mom's new puppy, Darby (who is adorable). It was a very LONG day. Jonah falls asleep at 8 PM. He wakes up at 8:30. Nurse and back to sleep. Wakes up at 9:20. Nurse, but not back to sleep. I ask Dave to walk him because I am all done for the day. You know that feeling of uter frustration because you don't know what else to do? Yep, I was there.

You know that feeling of being the worst parent on the world because your son cries himself to sleep. Yep, I AM there. He did FINALLY fall asleep, but it was h*#@!!!!!! He is now making the saddest little sobs. It breaks my heart. Every other night he has lovingly been held and rocked until he fell asleep. I hate that he was miserable as he ended the day. I want to go and pick him up and let him know that I love him and that I am sorry that the last 45 minutes happened. I feel sick to my stomach. I know that he wasn't hurting and that he was just mad, but it really doesn't make it any easier. So now I have to try to go to sleep feeling like a horrible person. My poor baby!!!!! :(

Who knows, tonight may be an even worse night - for me!!

WE DID IT!!!!!

Jonah slept in his OWN room last night. He will be 10 months on Monday. I have had him in our room every night since he was born. He has been sleeping in his pack-n-play for a couple months now, so we just moved it to his room. He slept pretty well. He still woke up 3 times, but he went back to sleep quickly and without any problems. I was apprehensive about letting him go, but I knew that it was time. He had started to wake up when we would get up to use the bathroom or let the dogs out. Surprisingly I slept really well. I thought it would be the other way around. I felt so much more rested all day today.

Baby steps!! Now to get him to go to bed when he's awake. Hmmmm!!!! OR let him cry himself to sleep. That may be the hardest one yet. :(

Off to bed. After I check on my sweet Jonah, that is!!! NIGHT!

Happenings

Not much is happening here in our neck of the woods. Jonah is crawling ALOT and boy is he fast!! I tried to crawl like him, but I was much slower. :) Probably didn't look as cute either. Oh well. Jonah's swimming class ends this Wednesday. It was a 6 week class and he LOVES it. He splashes from the moment we get into the water. The next Michael Phelps, perhaps? Who knows. It is so cute to see those babies in the water.

My sister, Katie came up for a quick weekend visit this past Saturday. It was SOOOO good to see her and 3 of her kids. Hi Kyle, missed you!! I was telling her that I just finished one of Karen Kingsbury's books - Someday - (awesome books by the way!!!) and I was jealous of the Baxter family - the main family in the book. You see the family has several brothers and sisters, and they all live in the same town. They have the same kind of relationship that my sisters and I do. I was coveting a family out of a fiction book. I just miss my sisters and brother-in-laws and all 6 of my nieces and nephews. How awesome would it be to all live near each other and go to church together, hang out whenever, and just be there for each other. It is my prayer that someday (like the book title) we will all live near each other. Nearer than 2 hours. My best friends are too far away!!!!!!

Poor Jonah has to go get a flu shot so I gotta run. :(