The worst feeling

So today was a bit of a challenge. Okay, so was last night. Jonah was up 5 times. I don't know why, so please don't ask. Once he was up for the day he was up. And I mean up. He slept for a total of 10 minutes. Let me add that it was very cold and extremely windy today, so I couldn't take him outside for a walk. David didn't get home until 7 PM. I was dog sitting for my mom's new puppy, Darby (who is adorable). It was a very LONG day. Jonah falls asleep at 8 PM. He wakes up at 8:30. Nurse and back to sleep. Wakes up at 9:20. Nurse, but not back to sleep. I ask Dave to walk him because I am all done for the day. You know that feeling of uter frustration because you don't know what else to do? Yep, I was there.

You know that feeling of being the worst parent on the world because your son cries himself to sleep. Yep, I AM there. He did FINALLY fall asleep, but it was h*#@!!!!!! He is now making the saddest little sobs. It breaks my heart. Every other night he has lovingly been held and rocked until he fell asleep. I hate that he was miserable as he ended the day. I want to go and pick him up and let him know that I love him and that I am sorry that the last 45 minutes happened. I feel sick to my stomach. I know that he wasn't hurting and that he was just mad, but it really doesn't make it any easier. So now I have to try to go to sleep feeling like a horrible person. My poor baby!!!!! :(

Who knows, tonight may be an even worse night - for me!!

WE DID IT!!!!!

Jonah slept in his OWN room last night. He will be 10 months on Monday. I have had him in our room every night since he was born. He has been sleeping in his pack-n-play for a couple months now, so we just moved it to his room. He slept pretty well. He still woke up 3 times, but he went back to sleep quickly and without any problems. I was apprehensive about letting him go, but I knew that it was time. He had started to wake up when we would get up to use the bathroom or let the dogs out. Surprisingly I slept really well. I thought it would be the other way around. I felt so much more rested all day today.

Baby steps!! Now to get him to go to bed when he's awake. Hmmmm!!!! OR let him cry himself to sleep. That may be the hardest one yet. :(

Off to bed. After I check on my sweet Jonah, that is!!! NIGHT!

Happenings

Not much is happening here in our neck of the woods. Jonah is crawling ALOT and boy is he fast!! I tried to crawl like him, but I was much slower. :) Probably didn't look as cute either. Oh well. Jonah's swimming class ends this Wednesday. It was a 6 week class and he LOVES it. He splashes from the moment we get into the water. The next Michael Phelps, perhaps? Who knows. It is so cute to see those babies in the water.

My sister, Katie came up for a quick weekend visit this past Saturday. It was SOOOO good to see her and 3 of her kids. Hi Kyle, missed you!! I was telling her that I just finished one of Karen Kingsbury's books - Someday - (awesome books by the way!!!) and I was jealous of the Baxter family - the main family in the book. You see the family has several brothers and sisters, and they all live in the same town. They have the same kind of relationship that my sisters and I do. I was coveting a family out of a fiction book. I just miss my sisters and brother-in-laws and all 6 of my nieces and nephews. How awesome would it be to all live near each other and go to church together, hang out whenever, and just be there for each other. It is my prayer that someday (like the book title) we will all live near each other. Nearer than 2 hours. My best friends are too far away!!!!!!

Poor Jonah has to go get a flu shot so I gotta run. :(

How big is Jonah? SOOOOO BIG!!!!

Today Jonah had his 9 month check up. I cannot believe it. I swear I was just there for his new baby appointment. Where does the time go???? ANYHOW... sorry, weepy mom moment! Jonah weighed in today at 19 lbs. 8 oz and he is 28 inches. (They measured his head too, but I don't remember that one. I just know that his head is proportionate to his body.) OKAY, not that I don't believe the scales, but... Jonah is a bit of a chunk. He looks huge!! There was a baby in the waiting room who was Jonah's size - HE WAS 14 MONTHS. I was expecting him to be much heavier than that. He certainly feels it!!

He had a good appt. and he was very pleasant. He had 3 shots :( but he only cried for like 3 seconds. He is such a sweet baby, and I love him so very much!! The Dr. said that he is very healthy and that he is doing very well. He is right on track with his development and he is starting to be very busy. Yes, I added the busy part. I am following him around saying danger, gentle (poor Pip and Ike), let's go this way, and so on. Things are starting to get interesting and a lot of fun.

Yesterday we ordered gates for the stairs. Our house now becomes an obstacle course - at least for the boys. I'm not to sure they are enjoying Jonah as much as Dave and I are. He is becoming unpredictable and he moves. They liked him better when he just sat there. There are times when I feel the same way, I must admit.

Loving my big baby boy,
Amy T

Moving

No, I'm not moving. Jonah is!!!! He started crawling on Monday and he is now off to wherever he can go. No more running into the other room to do, well... anything. He even crawled over to Dave, who was in the kitchen. No big deal you think? The family room is a step down from the kitchen. Dave provided the stability for him, but he managed to get up the step on his own. STINKER!!!!! He is also pulling himself up on things. He is fascinated with the time display on our Comcast box and on the DVD player, which is behind glass - pesky fingerprints. I LOVE IT!!

I cannot believe how fast he is growing and changing. He is almost 9 months. I swore I would cherish every moment, and I think I did, but it still went by in a blur.

Jonah had his very first class this past Wednesday. He is in a "swim" class at our local YMCA. It's a 6 week class that is all about getting the child comfortable with the water. Jonah loved the class and immediately started splashing. Dave took him in the water so I videotaped. (You know, one of those tapes that only a parent can tolerate - cause it's so boring. Plus, I often found that I was taping just the water or the wrong child. OOPS!!!! IT's hard to stay focused on a moving target.)

SO, anyhow, we are doing well and are loving our son. This has been an amazing journey so far. Now it's time to go to bed because I'm worn out.

My hero

Last evening, David, Jonah, and I head out to run a few quick errands. Quick, was the plan.

We are living in a neighborhood that is still being developed and there are many homes going up around us. For anyone not familiar with construction, it's dirty and messy. Often times random debris rolls across our lawn and down our street. That is harmless. However, the debris we ran into last night was not harmless. And perhaps I should say, the debris we ran OVER.

We arrive at the mall and I let David out so he can just run in and get what he needs. When he opened the door we heard a loud hissing sound. He asked me if my car had started making noise. I said not really. HUH! he said and runs into the mall. I'm curious so I put down my window and am appalled at how loud my car is. I drive to a parking spot and park. I figured the car would only make noise if it was on, so I turned it off. Yea, that didn't help. After watching a fellow mall patron stare at my noisy car as he walked by, I decided to get out and check things out. My side checked out fine, but rounding the front of the car... not so fine.

There goes my beautiful, recently purchased (of course) tire. It was going flat in front of my eyes. I just stood there and watched not knowing what else to do. David comes out of the mall to find me standing in the parking lot staring at my deflated tire. I immediately think of AAA. MY awesome hubby calmly goes to the back of the car and proceeds to get out the spare tire and jack. It took him longer the the NASCAR guys, but I am now the "proud" owner of a front right spare tire. He got at least 2 punches on his man-card for changing a tire. I love him and am so thankful for him. HONEY, YOU ROCK!!!!!!

Moral of the story: roofing nails belong on the roof and not in your tire!!!!

The best laid plans...

Last night, Jonah fell asleep around 9:30. David and I sat down to watch some Sunday night football. After doing some Sudoku, we decided to head to bed. It's about 11:15. I feel the urgent need to nurse and so I debate should I or shouldn't I. (Of course, you know that if I had decided to just pump, Jonah would have woken up right after I had sealed and labeled the bag and put it in the freezer. ) I decide to go for it. We get Jonah, who was VERY sleepy, and I begin to nurse. All is going well, until he decides to wake up. OK, isn't the nursing supposed to knock them out? Let's just say I wore a path in the upstairs hallway, after having to close all the doors to keep nosy Jonah from peering in. He finally goes to sleep!! YES!!!!!!!

Lay him down in his bed and start to climb into bed. He begins to stir. He isn't quite awake, but he keeps raising his head and looking around. Then he gets an his hands and knees and begins to rock back and forth. A new skill he learned. This continues for about 15 minutes (I am watching from the rocking chair). Finally, with one last look around he drops flat and is asleep. TOO CUTE!!! I continue to sit there and use the time to thank God for the blessing of this special child. Silence in the room at last. Climb into bed convinced that he will sleep until morning. It is now after 1 AM.

ZZZZZZZZZZZZ..............

WAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm awake. Pick up my very unhappy child and take him downstairs to change him, because I forgot to refill my upstairs supply of diapers. Down comes Ike who will go outside to patrol in any weather at any time. Change Jonah and wait for Ike. Let Ike in and sit down to nurse. Turn on the TV and begin to watch and replay of the Mets and the Phillies ( FYI: the Mets won).
Jonah nurses but decides to NOT go back to sleep. So we sit down and play. Down comes Pippin who wants to go outside. Out go Pip and Ike. In come Pip and Ike. Mommy and Jonah play. Around 5:30 Jonah wants to be held, so I move to the couch where I rock him. He goes back to sleep around 5:50. I take him up to bed. Passing David in the hallway who was headed downstairs for breakfast, I tell him not to wake me for my morning workout - much too sleepy. My head hits the pillow (I think) and I'm asleep.

On a positive note, he did sleep until 9 :40. He is now rolling ALL over the study and even managed to open one of David's cabinets. TIME TO BABYPROOF!!!!!!!!!!! Have to go!